choices

I chose today to be a homemaker.
Chili and corn bread for supper.
After the afternoon at the wrestles.
Juan took 4th.
South Fremont finished 3rd!
It was great being there with my good husband and fantastic kids.
I need to do and be better for both.
I am working at it.

Gea gets home in a week and a half.
Where did the time go?

Emily gets home in just short of 3 months.
Where did THAT time go?
I am excited
But so much to do!!

Life in our lane will change for a short while again.
That is our life.

An observation

Last night I went out to help Shawn with a little project on the car.
The heater doesn't work.
Workable if it is nice.
A flat pain when it is cold.
No one wants to drive it.

Shawn was determined to fix it.
I held the light and turned switches.
His job was to wedge himself into an impossible position to removed the screws and device.
It wasn't easy.
The first 3 screws cooperated.
The last one held tight.
It was as determined to stay as Shawn was to get it out so that he could "fix" the problem.
He cussed (much to my demise),
He yelled, (at least I thought it was yelling)
He pounded,
He tried other positions, but
it stayed.
In the end,
It lost.
Shawn removed the last screw, removed the device and by-passed the problem and hopes he fixed the problem.

For now.

I couldn't help but think about a comparison.
I have a good number of friends that for one reason or another are calling it quits on marriage. Maybe
they have a "screw" in a bad place
and think just because they have screamed, cussed, cried a few times
that they should remove offensive device after finally getting the screw out, by-pass marriage all-together and hopefully "fix" the problem.
For now.

Shawn said the heater still doesn't work really well.
So much for fixing the problem.
I'm sure we have people in our lives that are like that screw...
stubborn as all get out,
wedged in tight,
in a bad spot
and won't be fixed.
Maybe I have been that screw.

But I want to be somewhat immovable.
And steadfast.
Maybe a little W-D 40 would work...
What would work in a relationship.
The Savior could help and be the W-D 40.

Just some thoughts. Maybe they don't make much sense...

Project 3 hundred 34. . .

Many choices I could have made today.
Some I should have made better.
Maybe on another day I will.
But for now...
Oh well!!
I could have and (maybe should have) stayed home and cleaned up the disaster that hit
our home.
I could choose to sit for 5 hours at a wrestling match.
But not just any match.
It was the tournament at Sugar and Juan and good teammates were wrestling.
I choose wrestling.
I "wrestled" with the choice.
But,
From past experiences I know that my children choose their own paths eventually and I am left on the outside as they continue on with their lives and that is how it should be.
Today
I chose to experience success and the flip side with my son.
Now, while I could.
It was worth it.
He may make it to 3rd place.
That would be awesome and
I chose to be with him in the beginning.
Homemaking chores will always be there.
But...
When I got home
they weren't!...
Marc, my neat and organized child,
cleaned up my mess.
He did the dishes,
He baked the cookies I had made and left in the frig,
He put away the folded laundry (I did get it folded),
He straightened everything up.
And the house looked like, well...,
like people could inhabit the place.

I could have cried.

Thank you Marc. I love you.

Today was a hard day to keep my chin up.
I did.
That would probably count for my 365 project.
Instead I will tell you how good the 100 percent,
fresh ground,
wheat bread was.
I don't when the last time I had bragging rights
for
from the ground up bread.
My choice.As for the rest of the day...
It started out crisp but turned out to be a January thaw day.
And a wrestling day.
I love wrestling!
We went to North Fremont.
South Fremont lost by 5 points.
I think that honestly(and even North would have to agree)
we should have won.
The ref was pretty slow on pins.
Oh well.
The sweet part is that Juan was awesome!
He's getting it!
He is starting to realize both facts.
That is awesome.
Tomorrow is the Sugar/Salem Tourney.
We see you after that...

Project 365minus 24

I did it!!I worked on letters--Emily's and Brigham's, Christmas letters and cards, catching up in my journal, and other sundry things that haven't seemed to ever be a priority.
Not even today.
Today I made the choice.
I didn't finish.
I didn't feel guilty.
And it was OK.
Oh and I did OK with the eating
and I made a yummy stew.
Those are just things that should be routine
I have to concentrate on them and have them be my choices.
They were.

It was a good day.
Kids went to bed happy.
We're warm and fed and all is safe.
I'm happy (but very tired...)

Project 365minus 24

Krista's project 365 has inspired me.
Each day I plan to do something significant.
I don't know what that will be but...
I will look for something.

January 25th. I walked 2 miles
at night
on my hubby's arm.
It was great. He suggested it.
I detested the suggestion--
thought about it and then made the decision.
And we walked.

I think it is about control. So much of the time I feel out of control and when one can't put control and my life in the same sentence frustration happens and you turn to things where you "think" you do have control and most of the time they are still controlling you. So thus my 'Project'
They have to be something I wouldn't normally do during the day but something I consciensly choose to do; they don't have to be big.

Today I figured out how to used the "timed bake" on my oven that I have had for ? years. I lost the manual and gave up trying to figure it out years ago and tonight it worked!! (After much research.) I also figured our taxes without being coaxed by hubby. It felt good.

Sometimes I will try to include pictures; sometimes just expression.

Once again "life really is good!"

money

I hate being poor!!
but there must be something to learn from it all.
I will try to learn.
I will count my other blessings...
good children,
good husband,
great extended family,
warm and nice home,
church membership,
testimony of the Savior,
work,
health,
food...
I guess I'm not so poor;
Just wish I had a bit more money...